Dear Anyone,
Hiiii... *waves*… Remember me? I can see that it has been nine whole years since I updated you on my life events. I don't know whether that's good or bad, but such is life I guess.
To be honest, I would say that in the past nine years things have changed and also not changed. Changes include my employment situation - it was the usual on and off, my lowest period being in 2016, even though in 2015 I thought I'd finally found a job I enjoyed, where I felt useful and had my highest salary. It turned out that my boss was good at teaching and helping small businesses how to promote themselves, but she was bad at business herself. I started temping at a million different places from 2017 till 2020, then I became a permanent member of staff where I am now two months before the COVID lockdown. FORTUNATELY I was eligible for furlough, which I was so thankful for, because I do not know what I would have done otherwise. I enjoyed the furlough too.
What hasn't really changed is my love life. I'm still single and searching, and over the past few years it has basically been much of the same nonsense you've previously read about, just with new guys, haha. But I will say that what has changed (or still in the process of being put into practice and changing) is my attitude to dating. During lockdown in 2020 I was frustrated with yet another guy I was chatting to that was going nowhere, so I contacted a coach I knew of, because I figured there must be something I'm doing wrong. I did an 8-week one-to-one course of coaching that was predominantly focused on me learning to love myself first in order to see how it affects my dating decisions and actions. I get it now. I never understood the whole concept of loving myself beforehand. I basically thought that I don't need to love myself, I need someone else to fall in love with ME, duh. But don't worry, it all makes sense now.
So that's all I can think of telling you for now... I'm nearly 45 (can you bleedin' believe it??), getting older, and I keep being told my memory isn't what it used to be. If I'm honest I really don't care, it's time for someone else to be the memory bank, I'm tired. But I promise I will keep coming back and be like I used to, releasing my experiences and thoughts to you as an outlet, so things that have happened in the past nine years will be told at relevant times.
Soon come...
