Dear Anyone,
As I mentioned before, I've decided to try the dating website thing, and so last night I went on another 'date' with another guy, Rusty, who I got chatting to. This outing was a little.... strange.
We started chatting via the website, then I gave him my instant messenger details and we communicated on there. I didn't give him my number the first time he asked, because it was too early for that, but I decided to after a little while. He's cute looking, easier to chat with than Fisher, drives (which is good, because he doesn't live that close to me) and generally I thought he seemed cool.
Two days ago he text me and asked if I would like to go out, before he goes on holiday, so I said yes, and we agreed on meeting for drinks in Brixton at 8pm the next day. I was actually looking forward to it a little bit, because I was intrigued. So, yesterday evening I called him to ask where we should meet, and he asked if I would be able to go a bit further than Brixton, because he thought he would be there all day, but what he had been doing had finished early. I didn't mind too much, since we agreed to meet in Colliers Wood which is in the middle of our two areas. I was about 15 minutes late, and he was already waiting at the tube station when I arrived. He recognised me straight away and gave me a hug, but I could tell by the way he was dressed that we might not be doing what we had planned. He was wearing a blue jogging top and red jogging bottoms - not really a bar outfit... I asked him where we would be going, because the area isn't much of a social one, and that's when he told me that he's a bit financially challenged at the moment, as he had just moved to a new flat and purchased an expensive bed, as well as being in-between jobs at the moment, so he didn't want to go to a bar and make a fool of himself. But, he added, he had drinks back at his place where he wouldn't be able to make a fool of himself. As you can imagine, that was not on my agenda and I told him as such, so he suggested that we go for a drive instead, which we did. I think he was a bit embarassed that the passenger side door couldn't open, due to a little car accident he said he was in a few days ago, so I had to sit at the back while he drove. To anyone looking from the outside, it would seem as though I was in a cab. The conversation was cool though, we didn't struggle to chat and it wasn't awkward, unlike with Fisher. He said he was driving back to his place to get his jacket, and it took about 20 mins or so. I waited in the car while he went up, and when he came back about five minutes later he asked me where I would want to catch the train home from, so I told him I would rather get the bus from Wimbledon, because it would take me straight home.
He started driving again and we ended up in Wimbledon, and he told me that he would come and wait for my bus with me, which made me think Ok, I guess I'm going home now then. We sat in the car for about 15 mins more, chatting about America, starsigns, and other things I can't really remember right now. Then we got out of the car and made our way to the bus stop which was across the road. He actually had to run to catch the bus for me, because it arrived that quickly. So we hugged, he kissed me on the cheek, and I got on. That was it. The total time from when I met up with him to when I got on the bus was about an hour.
Here's what I think happened: He never actually intended for us to go to a bar. I think he had planned for me to go to his place, and when I declined he didn't actually have a Plan B, which is why it wasn't really a date, more like just a 'meet up.' He wasn't really prepared, and I wouldn't have thought anything of it if he hadn't made it seem like we were going out for drinks. He sent me a message today apologising for the evening, and hoped it didn't put me off meeting him again. He also said he had been hoping for a kiss on the lips! When exactly would that have happened??? If I do see him again, I would rather it be when he gets back from his trip and is a bit more settled, where we can at least go and chill and chat somewhere - not his place, I ain't no hussy! He seems like a nice, sweet guy, definitely attractive, but I'm not in a rush so I hope he isn't either.
The search continues...
Friday, 22 January 2010
Friday, 1 January 2010
Dawn of a New Decade
Dear Anyone,
2010 eh? Can you believe it? It has been a whole decade since the world was supposed to shut down due to the Millennium Bug. A whole ten years ago! And I remember the year 2000 so well. I was extremely unemployed after finishing university, and I became depressed, and did plenty of courses to try and stay relevant. Wow... the old days. In 10 years time I'll be 42... SO MUCH NEEDS TO HAPPEN IN THAT TIME! A career, marriage and two kids at least.
I haven't actually set any goals for myself this year, I don't feel like I can be bothered. I know what I'd like to do, and I'll do what I can to make them happen, but right now the whole new year's resolution thing is a bit tiresome to me. I'm definitely not doing that "this is going to be my year" nonsense either. Apparently it's been my year for the past 10 years - I should be running around giddy in Exstatic-Land!
I do think I'm a lot more proactive nowadays, however. Maybe not as much as I should be in terms of finding a new 9-5, but I am with the freelance writing, and definitely in playing in the field of Find a Boyfriend. I just don't want to play that field for too long, I want to hit a home-run and go and celebrate!
Hopefully this year will be a good one, and it will be as soon as I find a well-paying gig that will lead to everything else falling into place.
2010 eh? Can you believe it? It has been a whole decade since the world was supposed to shut down due to the Millennium Bug. A whole ten years ago! And I remember the year 2000 so well. I was extremely unemployed after finishing university, and I became depressed, and did plenty of courses to try and stay relevant. Wow... the old days. In 10 years time I'll be 42... SO MUCH NEEDS TO HAPPEN IN THAT TIME! A career, marriage and two kids at least.
I haven't actually set any goals for myself this year, I don't feel like I can be bothered. I know what I'd like to do, and I'll do what I can to make them happen, but right now the whole new year's resolution thing is a bit tiresome to me. I'm definitely not doing that "this is going to be my year" nonsense either. Apparently it's been my year for the past 10 years - I should be running around giddy in Exstatic-Land!
I do think I'm a lot more proactive nowadays, however. Maybe not as much as I should be in terms of finding a new 9-5, but I am with the freelance writing, and definitely in playing in the field of Find a Boyfriend. I just don't want to play that field for too long, I want to hit a home-run and go and celebrate!
Hopefully this year will be a good one, and it will be as soon as I find a well-paying gig that will lead to everything else falling into place.
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
Birthday Thanks
Dear God,
Thank you for allowing me to see another birthday. Please bless me with the ability to be patient in receiving what I want in life, and to stop worrying that I don't yet have it. If it's a case of you waiting for everything to happen for me this year, then I pray it does. Through your son Jesus Christ, amen.
Dear Anyone,
I just want to thank my wonderful friends and family for making my birthday so fun. Although I had to waste most of the day at work, my colleagues (eventually) decorated the area behind my desk, and bought me a big, lovely, sweet birthday cake, which I was able to share with my friends and cousins this evening at the bar we went to. I also received three items on my birthday wish list! I'm so happy! I also can't wait for Saturday, because we'll be dining Japanese style, and then partying the night away in the comfort of SP's boyfriend Joseph's family home. Can you say 'EXCITED??!!'
But wow.......32.... hmm...
Thank you for allowing me to see another birthday. Please bless me with the ability to be patient in receiving what I want in life, and to stop worrying that I don't yet have it. If it's a case of you waiting for everything to happen for me this year, then I pray it does. Through your son Jesus Christ, amen.
Dear Anyone,
I just want to thank my wonderful friends and family for making my birthday so fun. Although I had to waste most of the day at work, my colleagues (eventually) decorated the area behind my desk, and bought me a big, lovely, sweet birthday cake, which I was able to share with my friends and cousins this evening at the bar we went to. I also received three items on my birthday wish list! I'm so happy! I also can't wait for Saturday, because we'll be dining Japanese style, and then partying the night away in the comfort of SP's boyfriend Joseph's family home. Can you say 'EXCITED??!!'
But wow.......32.... hmm...
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
Birthday Wish List 09
Dear Anyone,
With exactly two weeks to go until my birthday, I thought you may like a hand in deciding what present to get me... you know... in case it's really troubling you. So you can choose from:
The new iPod Nano - I want a purple one! It's beautiful.
Michael Jackson's 'This Is It' DVD - I don't know when it's out, but whenever it does come out, that would be great.
'Thriller Live' tickets - I've heard that this show is really good, and... well... obviously it's about Michael Jackson, so naturally I have to see it.
An FM radio stereo system - all I currently have is my Bose iPod dock, so I haven't listened to the radio for aaaaaages. No wonder I have no clue what any song is these days.
Look Magazine Subscription - this is currently the only magazine I buy on a weekly basis, so I might as well subscribe really. I like the fact that they have achieveable fashion (namely high street) brands as well as the obligatory designer labels.
*This post has been written in jest. I don't really expect presents, but I won't lie, it is nice to receive them.
Gone Fishing
Dear Anyone,
After some careful thought and consideration, and encouragement from my life coach, I decided to take a big step out of my comfort zone and join a dating website.......... and I've just come from a 'date' with a guy I met on there.
I joined the site a week and a half ago, and my friend Shar is very happy I have - she's been on there for about a year and she keeps coming back with stories of her various escapades, so I thought I'd give it a try. The guy I met, we'll call him Fisher, is quite cute, he's 20 days older than me, studying for his Masters degree, drives, doesn't live too far and he seems nice enough, but he's not from here (something I'm not used to) and he's pretty quiet like me, so there were gaps in conversation. Just as well the Nandos was delish. Also, he's laying the compliments on a little too strongly at an early stage. He'd already started calling me 'my angel' when we'd been chatting on instant messenger for about a day, and when we sat in his car to talk more after the meal, he actually adjusted his seat so that he could stare at me. I think he was under the impression that something romantic would happen, because he then tried to stroke strands of my hair. Tres uncomfortable. I know some will say that there's no pleasing some women, but it kinda makes me feel like telling him to "calm down son!"
My problem is that I like to get to know new guys gradually. Actually I shouldn't say 'problem', it's just how I am. As much as I would like to be in a relationship, I don't like feeling forced or like it's not flowing naturally. For me, this was more a chance for us to meet more than it was a date. Of course I'm not going to write him off, I'm just going to make sure that if anything is to develop here, it will be at my pace. He wants to see me again, but I told him that I don't know when I'll be free, and that is the truth. I'm off to Birmingham this weekend (hopefully there'll be plenty of stories derived from that trip) and it's Christmas next week, so I really don't know. Though I think I'd rather we chatted on the phone a bit more first. Hmm... we'll see...
After some careful thought and consideration, and encouragement from my life coach, I decided to take a big step out of my comfort zone and join a dating website.......... and I've just come from a 'date' with a guy I met on there.
I joined the site a week and a half ago, and my friend Shar is very happy I have - she's been on there for about a year and she keeps coming back with stories of her various escapades, so I thought I'd give it a try. The guy I met, we'll call him Fisher, is quite cute, he's 20 days older than me, studying for his Masters degree, drives, doesn't live too far and he seems nice enough, but he's not from here (something I'm not used to) and he's pretty quiet like me, so there were gaps in conversation. Just as well the Nandos was delish. Also, he's laying the compliments on a little too strongly at an early stage. He'd already started calling me 'my angel' when we'd been chatting on instant messenger for about a day, and when we sat in his car to talk more after the meal, he actually adjusted his seat so that he could stare at me. I think he was under the impression that something romantic would happen, because he then tried to stroke strands of my hair. Tres uncomfortable. I know some will say that there's no pleasing some women, but it kinda makes me feel like telling him to "calm down son!"
My problem is that I like to get to know new guys gradually. Actually I shouldn't say 'problem', it's just how I am. As much as I would like to be in a relationship, I don't like feeling forced or like it's not flowing naturally. For me, this was more a chance for us to meet more than it was a date. Of course I'm not going to write him off, I'm just going to make sure that if anything is to develop here, it will be at my pace. He wants to see me again, but I told him that I don't know when I'll be free, and that is the truth. I'm off to Birmingham this weekend (hopefully there'll be plenty of stories derived from that trip) and it's Christmas next week, so I really don't know. Though I think I'd rather we chatted on the phone a bit more first. Hmm... we'll see...
Sunday, 6 December 2009
Back in 09
Dear Anyone,
Although we have not yet entered 2010, and it's a little early to be reciting my resolutions, I would just like to inform you of one I have made. I will be leaving all these Doing-Nothing-For-Me men back in 2009.
I have decided to leave the idea of Muscle here in 2009. Yes, he ticks most of the boxes on my list, and yes, I probably held a fraction of hope that one day maybe, just maybe, we might actually get together, but I've accepted that it more than likely won't happen. I came to this conclusion a couple of weeks ago when I called him just to catch up, since we hadn't spoken for a while. It was a Sunday afternoon and he said he was just chilling at home, but he kept yawning, and I think the thing that cemented it for me was the fact that he ended the conversation. They say that the one who made the call should be the one to end it, and if the other person does, then they are probably bored or don't want to speak to you. I'm not saying there was any type of malicious intent, but maybe I should just take a hint. So I will. We'll always be friends, because I think he's a great guy, but any sort of harboured hope I may hold will no longer remain.
As for Tod, the whole 'it is what it is' won't be any longer. It's really not worth it and I deserve 100% better. Entertaining him is compromising who I am and what I actually want. I know there are many girls who he spins the same lyrics to as he spins to me, so I just don't see why I should lower myself. Again with him I'll also remain friends, but nothing further.
The Body isn't even really worth mentioning. He calls or messages me probably when I cross his mind every few weeks, and aside from him being young, I feel he is someone who wants to be chased and expects a girl to come to him on his own time, and that doesn't work for me. He'll ask when I'm free, and he will want it to be at that momemt that he's contacted me, when I'm usually busy, but he won't make an effort to arrange a time and make it happen, which is annoying really. Hot boy, but I need a hot man.
So hopefully, together with your prayers and my strength, I will leave these people (as I've known them) here at the end of 2009, and begin the new decade with a new network and new opportunities and experiences.
Although we have not yet entered 2010, and it's a little early to be reciting my resolutions, I would just like to inform you of one I have made. I will be leaving all these Doing-Nothing-For-Me men back in 2009.
I have decided to leave the idea of Muscle here in 2009. Yes, he ticks most of the boxes on my list, and yes, I probably held a fraction of hope that one day maybe, just maybe, we might actually get together, but I've accepted that it more than likely won't happen. I came to this conclusion a couple of weeks ago when I called him just to catch up, since we hadn't spoken for a while. It was a Sunday afternoon and he said he was just chilling at home, but he kept yawning, and I think the thing that cemented it for me was the fact that he ended the conversation. They say that the one who made the call should be the one to end it, and if the other person does, then they are probably bored or don't want to speak to you. I'm not saying there was any type of malicious intent, but maybe I should just take a hint. So I will. We'll always be friends, because I think he's a great guy, but any sort of harboured hope I may hold will no longer remain.
As for Tod, the whole 'it is what it is' won't be any longer. It's really not worth it and I deserve 100% better. Entertaining him is compromising who I am and what I actually want. I know there are many girls who he spins the same lyrics to as he spins to me, so I just don't see why I should lower myself. Again with him I'll also remain friends, but nothing further.
The Body isn't even really worth mentioning. He calls or messages me probably when I cross his mind every few weeks, and aside from him being young, I feel he is someone who wants to be chased and expects a girl to come to him on his own time, and that doesn't work for me. He'll ask when I'm free, and he will want it to be at that momemt that he's contacted me, when I'm usually busy, but he won't make an effort to arrange a time and make it happen, which is annoying really. Hot boy, but I need a hot man.
So hopefully, together with your prayers and my strength, I will leave these people (as I've known them) here at the end of 2009, and begin the new decade with a new network and new opportunities and experiences.
Sunday, 29 November 2009
Plus None?
Dear Anyone,
I have just come back from a wedding I attended all by myself. As in... no date, no mate, just me and people I had a good chance of not knowing. Would that not be considered a nightmare for some people?!
I was invited by the groom Aidan, who I went to University with. When I received the invitation I was quite impressed by its packaging. It was rolled in a golden coloured tube, with a nice golden ribbon tied around it. I read the details, and apart from the fact that it was all the way across London, I was baffled by the "(1)" written beside my name. Did this mean me plus one, or me alone? I sent Aidan a text asking just that, and his reply was: "Just you." Ok... never heard that one before.
I seriously SERIOUSLY debated whether or not to go, because I know myself. If it's just me invited, then it means trekking all the way in no car, and carrying my shoes, because I'm not hurting my feet in heels for anyone. But I'm so glad I decided to go - it was lovely!
I was at the table reserved for Uni friends, so I was with at least four others that I knew and haven't seen for years, but we were all joking around and reminiscing, and it was great. I didn't feel awkward at all. At one point one of the guys suggested that a few of us exchange seats, so that everyone mingles with each other, and it worked.
They say that there is always a chance that you could meet a potential new 'someone' at a wedding, and although this didn't really happen for me, I did get talking to one guy who I knew from Uni but we didn't speak back then. To be honest, he used to scare me a little, and I told him so today. Back then he just seemed aggressive, with his gold tooth and tattoos. He laughed when I told him, and one of the other guys said that I'm not the first to think that. But now that I've actually spoken to him, he's quite mellow and funny... and cute. I gave him my details to find me on Facebook (his suggestion), so we'll see.
Despite the typical wet English weather trying to dampen the mood, it has turned out to be a really nice day. It's lovely to see Aidan so happy, and his new wife seems like a lovely woman, judging by all the tributes that were made. Aidan reckons it will be my turn soon, and I appreciate his faith, but I'm saying nothing. It's made me think that I need to get my skates on though, 2011 isn't that far off...
I have just come back from a wedding I attended all by myself. As in... no date, no mate, just me and people I had a good chance of not knowing. Would that not be considered a nightmare for some people?!
I was invited by the groom Aidan, who I went to University with. When I received the invitation I was quite impressed by its packaging. It was rolled in a golden coloured tube, with a nice golden ribbon tied around it. I read the details, and apart from the fact that it was all the way across London, I was baffled by the "(1)" written beside my name. Did this mean me plus one, or me alone? I sent Aidan a text asking just that, and his reply was: "Just you." Ok... never heard that one before.
I seriously SERIOUSLY debated whether or not to go, because I know myself. If it's just me invited, then it means trekking all the way in no car, and carrying my shoes, because I'm not hurting my feet in heels for anyone. But I'm so glad I decided to go - it was lovely!
I was at the table reserved for Uni friends, so I was with at least four others that I knew and haven't seen for years, but we were all joking around and reminiscing, and it was great. I didn't feel awkward at all. At one point one of the guys suggested that a few of us exchange seats, so that everyone mingles with each other, and it worked.
They say that there is always a chance that you could meet a potential new 'someone' at a wedding, and although this didn't really happen for me, I did get talking to one guy who I knew from Uni but we didn't speak back then. To be honest, he used to scare me a little, and I told him so today. Back then he just seemed aggressive, with his gold tooth and tattoos. He laughed when I told him, and one of the other guys said that I'm not the first to think that. But now that I've actually spoken to him, he's quite mellow and funny... and cute. I gave him my details to find me on Facebook (his suggestion), so we'll see.
Despite the typical wet English weather trying to dampen the mood, it has turned out to be a really nice day. It's lovely to see Aidan so happy, and his new wife seems like a lovely woman, judging by all the tributes that were made. Aidan reckons it will be my turn soon, and I appreciate his faith, but I'm saying nothing. It's made me think that I need to get my skates on though, 2011 isn't that far off...
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